Yesterday, I invited someone to join us for a big event we are having at my church this Sunday. His response was “I don’t go to church anymore because most of the people at church are hypocrites”
I responded with my usual… “yea I agree. ESPECIALLY my church. It’s full of them. I’m the pastor, and I’m a hypocrite, too!”
Aaand our conversation dwindled…
But as I reflect back on that moment with a random guy at a coffee shop, I can’t help but think about how my response is SO TRUE. My life is SUCH a contradiction sometimes. My behavior often contradicts my values, occasionally my actions contradict my beliefs, and sometimes my life contradicts my “position” in the church.
I wish I was actually as good of a person as I make myself out to be on stage or on the internet. But I’m not.
Sometimes, I have a really hard heart toward people.
- Sometimes I am really judgmental of the people who are really judgmental.
- Sometimes I look down on those who look down on others.
- Sometimes I take a hardened posture toward those who I consider “religious” or “legalistic.”
- Sometimes I preach from a place of hurt, instead of preaching from a place of wholeness.
- Sometimes I make assumptions about people and their motives, instead of extending grace and assuming the best.
- Sometimes I do the stuff that I tell people not to do from my platform.
- And sometimes I don’t do the stuff I tell people to do from my platform.
Sometimes, I’m the hypocrite.
But I still show up. I still preach. I still do what I’m called to do. Not because I’m perfect. Not because I’ve got it all together. But because I realize we are all on the same road. We all need one another’s support. We all need some direction. And we all need some help at times.
Hi, my name is Bill, and I’m a hypocrite. See you at church this Sunday!